Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Happy Birthday Alan!

Dear Alan, it’s hard to believe today is your 26th birthday! It seems only yesterday I held you for the first time and looked into your eyes—the bluest of eyes, expecting, I guess, to see God in them…. And I did! Oh, I did, for right there and then, I saw angels by my side. This, only a mother's love can understand.

Remember what I said then, to you--my first born? I told you how much I love you. I was only 20, and could swear you understood what I was saying. At that moment, you did something amazing, you offered me the gift of your smile, your first smile, and I saw little twinkle stars in your eyes—or was it maybe my eyes glimmering with tears of joy? Only a mother's love can understand those tears, for only a mother's love can share the joy we feel, when something we've dreamed about quite suddenly becomes so real....

I look at you in the imagery of my mind, and I can still see a sweet little boy, so smart, always asking questions, as grasping the world which had been offered to him, in tiny bits of new discoveries at a time….

You were my joy! How I loved that big smile of yours, and perfect YOU!

So funny, you were so funny! And still are!

Among little angels, you were my special angel! The best! The cutiest! The perfect little boy of my heart's content!

I thank God for you everyday, you are a good son, loving, responsible, generous, sweet, funny-oh so funny, smart, talented, tender-hearted, creative, and I could go on and on...

Have a Happy Birthday, my son. I love you!